I’ve often thought of myself as a sort of walking discrepancy. I think that it’d be just a little too much of a delusion of grandeur to try to go the yin yang route. But paradoxical and hypocritical seem to fit the bill pretty accurately. I mean, I like something but hate it too. And it’s not wholly out of character for me to say one thing and do another. I’m assuming that this can be irritating to those around me; fortunately most of my friends are hopped up on enough adderrol that leads them to sufficiently recognize their own shortcomings so as not to focus on mine (although the 40 mg of adderrol has got their focus razor sharp if they wanted to). With this in mind, I’d like to consider yet another discrepancy.
I love laziness. I mean I really embrace it, in fact with such zeal that it borders on not being lazy at all. But, I’ll tell you what, if I am not facing some type of challenge that requires great amounts of energy and effort in order to succeed in order to get that feeling of finality and completion, I just want to fling myself off a bridge due to boredom.
As with most paradoxes where both contradcting forces need to be satisfied, a dilemma is unavoidable here. But, also like most dilemmas, an solution is possible. I need to be lazy, so I can work from home (this isn’t to disparage others that work at home with good reason, I simply have no other reason than laziness). But, the ever changing world of computers will offer me the complexity and difficulty I need to satiate my need to assuage boredom with challenging projects.
As you know with computers there’s great demand for those with the skills to trouble shoot, repair, program, maintain and all other seemingly infinite facets of the field that leaves the average person clueless. These are all jobs that can be done with a computer home based job. Its just that easy and thank god challenging at the same time. I work at home, easy. I work with computers, challenging. I’ve got a computer home based job and every one of my naturally based, impossible to satisfy personal discrepancies satisfied.